I am a mom of 2, wife, worship leader, worship minister, sister, daughter, pastors wife, friend.....and probably more. All of that kept rolling through my head when I saw that pregnancy test turned positive in 2.3 seconds. "How do I do all of this? How do you add a 3rd child? Where will we put him/her? I can't do all of this." I have been afraid. Scared. Excited. And scared all over again.
As I prayed and walked through some things this week to face these things, the Lord kept reminding me that there none of these things, even if I was only ONE of them, could be done without him.
"When we see you we find strength to face the day. In your presence all our fears our washed away." That is a line from the song "Hosanna by Paul Baloche. I am reminded that when I am doing these things in my own strength I have taken my eyes off him. It's like I have decided that I don't need him and then comes the fear, anxiety and worry. Not a good combination.
I am encouraged that God doesn't want us to do these things alone. He never asked us to. I am encouraged that I know He will provide for me in whatever way He decides and that it will be His perfect will. Staying tuned in to his voice and letting go is the key.