Wednesday, July 05, 2006
A Day Off!
This has been a great week. Jason, Jackson and I had yesterday and today off. It was awesome. After a long week last week, it was the perfect thing to look forward too. I started leading worship again. I think it went pretty well. It was great to be up there again singing, but really I just love being a part of something. It seems to be a bit overwhelming still with a new baby, but I really do now see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am happy to say that things are getting a big more on schedule. Jackson is sleeping really well at night and so are Mommy and Daddy! Yay! We are still getting up 1-2 times a night, but hey it could be worse. (Like it was!)
Right now, I am just really focusing on not living for tomorrow or next week, but today. As long as I can go day by day then I am good. I also am looking really forward to getting in shape!!! I have lost most of the baby weight, but my body is totally different. It's frustrating, but I have remind myself that it's only been 5 weeks since I had a baby! I was pregnant for 9 months! (Geez Natalie) Yeah, I know. I guess my weight has always been a struggle. I perceived it as always holding me back for bigger and better things. In high school it was guys. Yeah, I know..also stupid. Now, I think it's just that I see it as a hindrance in being like everyone else. Pretty. I guess, pretty isn't all about looks though...but I sure wish the looks part just wasn't that big of deal to me.
In the end, I really do know that God and Jason think I am beautiful. I am glad. That makes me happy.